So, I have an appointment with a radiation oncologist for Monday. I will show up with a list of questions and ask him to sell me on his servicios. Maybe he'll sell me...actually, he probably will. I'm so sad, but am already mostly sold on the notion that radiation give me the best shot right now. The oncology nurse told me that I will probably, over time, have a decreased ability to multitask. I'm known for being able to do a lot at once, and deeply saddened that this will likely be impaired, but--I want to live. That's what it comes down to. And putting all intellectual vanity aside, who can blame me?